Ashley came from a Christian family. Her family had a reputation of being respected in the community. It was for that reason that she was given a warning not to befriend anybody who has bad reputation. One day, while walking along the street, she was bumped by a man riding on a motorcycle. It was not a so-serious kind of bump. It just gave her smooth legs a bruise. The man riding on the motor was none other than her childhood crush. He was John. She had a crush on him since Grade 2. He''s their classroom escort by that time. Though he did not become her classmate after the 2nd grade, she kept her feeling for him. And now that she''s 23, and maybe, he''s 24, she can''t believe it. She thought, at that moment he "bumped" her, her crush for him was ablazed again.[BR] "Ashley! I''m really sorry. My motor got out of control." He went down of his motor, laid down his motor and sat down to see my bruise.[BR]"Ahm... Yeah, It''s just fine. I like putting alcohol on my bruise. Something like that..." She''s really uncomfortable. Maybe, he felt that so he stood up.[BR]"You look so beautiful now..." She felt her hot cheeks. But she should forget that. He looked so wild and dirty of his looks now. Braided hair, pierced nose, ear, tongue and she didn''t know where else. since he''s wearing a jersey, she could see his tattood arms. The tattoo on the left arm was satan''s face and on the right was a red rose with long stem with torns. For more than a decade of having liking him as my crush, for her, it was not just merely crush... It was a kind of attraction that if ever they''ll have time together, she could love him. But she thought of her family''s advice not to fall for guys who look disrespectful. she even heard that he''s a drug pusher. He''s a little bit chubby when he was younger but she became a little bit skinny. But despite that, he still lokked handsome. He asked her for date that day but she refused. I know it pained him but it was not her heart''s decision. It was her head''s. Days passed by and she couldn''t get John out of his mind. So he decided to look for him. She found him in a computer cafe he owned. [BR]"Hi!" she told him, with a smile. That day, she thought that she wanted to give him a chance. And if she''ll change for her, she''s willing to give her future to him. She meant, she''ll love him. It wasn''t a condition regarding her love. It was just her way to prove if he loved her, in a way... [BR]"What can I do for my beautiful old classmate?"[BR]I smiled of what he said. [BR]"I just want to look for a good PC. I''m planning to buy one. I want to seek your advice where to buy. I''m sure, you know better than me."[BR]"Hmmm..." He was thinking, patting her pointing and middle finger on his chin. "If it''s just okay for you, I''ll go with you to my friend''s shop. He sells computer..." He asked a friend to take care of his shop while he''s not around. When we''re already in the bus to go to his friend, I asked an apology ti him because I lied. I just want to talk with him for hurting him. I knew he was hurt when I said no to his offered date. He understod me. she asked him i that day could be the day for their date. And he said yes. They watched a movie and they found out that they are both fond of Rush Hour. They went to a city amusement park. They had fun on park rides. They ate street foods that claimed they ffirst did on that day. It was an odd and happy day. Odd because she felt she''s falling for him but he''s the kind of guy her family couldn'' accept. I don''t believe he''s a drug pusher so I asked him about that.[BR]"What? You''re asking me if I''m drug pusher?"[BR]"Yes.
"[BR]"What if I''ll say yes?"[BR]"Yes?"[BR]"What if..." She couldn''t answer. She knew that she loved him as who he was. If ever she''ll not love him, it was because of her family standard. But she''s sure, whoever he was, she loved him whe]"I''m a drug pusher. And drug user. Sorry for being so. From this day and on, I don''t want to see you anymore. Not because I hate you. It was because I don''t want to hurt you. I know your family. Your father is our City Mayor. And aving me as a boyfriend will just hurt you. Sorry for being the worst guy. Let''s just not see each other." [BR]"But..."[BR]"Just go... I''m just fine." He even pushed me to go out. She didn''t know what to do. She just ran away. For she fell in love with the wrong guy. Was he the wrong guy if her heart told herself, he''s the right one? She did not see him in the place from then on. They met after five years. And she was shocked upon knowing that he''s now the community pastor. She learned that when her brother, who was a pastor invited him in their house.[BR]"Ashley, Pastor John. Pastor, my sister." She was shocked upon seein an angelic man in front of me, waiting for a handshake. [BR]My brother noticed our facial expressions. We seemed to know each other so well. She accpeted his handshake and went to her room. She couldn''t believe he''s so lovable this time. But why did he come when she''s about to marry? He''s the guy her family really wanted for her. He''s James. She couldn''t believe when one time, he approached her in a corner of their house. "I''m sorry for going away. I just want to have a renewed life. Because that''s the only way, I know, to your family''s heart. And to your heart."[BR]"You should have told me that you''ll come back so that I waited. For now, I committed myself to someone I don''t love. But since my family loves him, how can I turn them down? I also love my family..."[BR]"You can love and marry whoever you want to love. I just ralized that I should turn away from my sinful life. To please God, above all, to please your family... And to please you. But I didn''t think that I''ll meet you again, with future groom by your side."[BR]"Okay. See someday then. This is painful here." She pinpointed her heart while crying. she left him.[BR]On the day of my marriage with James, I received a letter from John.[BR]Ashley,[BR] Enjoy your married life with James. Knowing that Jesus will be the center of your wedding life will be enough for me. Don''t worry. This will not painful for me. Life is like this. Not perfect. we cannot control life. I loved you. But you''re destined to love each other. I will not cry. God will give me strength through Jesus Christ.[BR] Your brother in Christ,[BR] John[BR]