I have never
received a
red rose before. Do you know this feeling that gets you once you find a red rose waiting for you? That smile you expose filled with suspense, excitement, happiness, pleasure and curiosity when you try to predict the sender? Do you know how sometimes you would want to save a single petal in a book just to capture that felt instant forever? Well… I have never felt it. I have received lots of meaningful gifts… I’ve been given mixed tapes, burnt CDs, souvenir albums, designed pictures with hearts on them, dedicated songs, postcards, short video montages, a star, and I have loved them all. But never a red rose… as I have never received a red rose before.
Today was fun. I met with Charles for a special “Cousins’ day out”. We had lunch together and sang really loudly in the car. I’m appreciating my Wednesday off. Despite me studying non-stop to avoid having a hectic week next month, I really enjoyed today. I am really liking this week. Nothing extraordinary really, but I have come to realize that not only did I get to choose my own major, but I’m also getting to
love it. Hence I’m getting an immense dosage of excitement and motivation, and I’m studying without any complaint. I dropped Charles home and drove alone on the way back. Traffic Jam. Nothing really surprising. While waiting for the line to move on the sea side road next to that little pet shot at the side of the road, there was one particular girl I envied. I didn’t envy her because she drove an X5, nor because she was wearing killer heels. I envied her because there was something particular left for her on her windshield… a single red rose. The line moved slowly, but I stayed put. I wanted to catch her reaction. She was on the phone. She unlocked her car, took the red rose while talking, threw it on her dashboard, and drove away. I smiled really… she didn’t even capture its scent, she didn’t even smell it. The driver behind me got angry and started using the horn. I drove away. I wonder what she did with it later on…
It is really funny how I never got a red rose before. I was sent a few on MSN on different occasions… But how can you save a virtual petal? I tried to do that… I
saved entire conversations just to save that tiny petal and save that smile I exposed when it was sent. But then my laptop broke, my PC got formatted and memories faded away along with the virtual petals. I really tried to save those roses… But I never received a real one before.
Last week, my pink mobile phone went on strike and decided not to read my SIM card anymore. It didn’t anger me. I switched it off and went to class, attending the course taught by the instructor I judged in my previous entry. I admit I was wrong about him; he’s ok as a person. I actually enjoyed his method. But once I got home that night, I took my old mobile phone and switched it on. The first thing that captured my attention was the inbox… I remember deleting many
messages before using the new pink cell. But I was still left with 40 saved SMS. Curious, I started to read them, one by one. And then I understood why they managed to escape the erasing process… They were
midnight messages. Do you know that feeling when you’re sound asleep, but then you hear that buzzing sound coming from afar? You open one eye, trying to cling to your drowsiness, yet you’re excited enough to find consciousness… “Who could it be?” you wonder. And here it is… that message that would dictate what’s left of your dreams for the night. Some messages do not make it till morning, they get deleted instantly. Some put you back to sleep effortlessly. And some make you smile…genuinely. But the Adrenaline rush is what makes your heart beat, rhyming with the cell’s vibration. Dear Diary, I have a revelation to make… that kind of messages, the mysterious suspenseful unexpected ones? I love them. I never expect them, yet I always feel them. I am thankful for the saved midnight messages, I really am. But still… I have never everreceived a red rose before… not even in a midnight message.
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