This is what we called life December 30, 2007.
Ang lapit n nang New Year... haiz parang kailan <
BR>lang, U will never Notice that matatapos
na ang taon, isang tulog
nalang then we are celibrating the new year.All we
know every people
around the world are preparing for this coming very special
day. When
if we
say celibration, celibrate here, celibrate there, celibrated it
everywhere and of course you see faces witch full of joy and also we
hear everyone''s laughter ( ^_^ ). Despite the fact unlike me,
hmmmm... asking why? well... because I was always celibrating my
holidays alone ( :-( ). I said alone because I am far away from my
family. I am here working making my days busy in this way nababawasan
ang pangungulila ko for them ( :-( ).This is what we called
LIFE and you really face everything even though it is very hard.
Atleast I know how to smile because I know GOD is always there for me I
have my friends and there are many people around me ( ^_^ ). How
I wish na maranasan ko man lang ang maging masaya together with my
family but sad to say that it will never be happen by now. Though i
will never loose faith, I have always faith. I dont want to feel like
this for the rest of my life. In the name of family, naiingit ako sa
iba kasi they are together, live together as happy family not like us.
Why I say this? it''s because hindi ko naranasan ang salitang TOGETHER
as one family.Here is the summary " my 3 brothers are in Cebu they live
there, my 1 brother there in Ormoc City they live there, my 2 brothers
are there in my parents there in my place Tabango leyte witch the one I
called it black sheep, do u think I am bad to say these words towards
him? ( :-( ) and then I and my sister here in manila. I am working
here and for my sister she live here. Everytime we were
planning for celibration there was always happen na kahit dapat na you
will never be afraid but you felt it much ( :-( ). We were afraid not
just because of father? nope not him he is very nice even though he
will always drunk he was always very lovable to us instead we were very
very afraid when my brother get drunk ( :-( ) sa kanya kami takot "
huhuhuhuhu" thats why hindi kami pwedeng magsama-sama its because of
him. Maybe you people think what kind of brother he is...
well... I dont know too because he was very nice to us when he was not
drunk. That is the reason why I need to go away, away from him. I
remember this very special day a very momentous day to me. The day I
called the happiest and yet sadiest day of my life. It was December 25,
2006 at 12:30am and December 31, 2006 at 12:15am this was the very most
scary day in my intire life compare to the past christmas and new years
together with my family. Every time this special day came I will never
forget the story behind to it. Pagkalipas it is another days,
weeks, months to come na naman we live like nothing happen, as we say
to it balik na naman sa normal. There are many tomorrows, our future
will be very bright we need to look forward to it no need to go back
with the past. but " hindi mo talaga maiwasan na hindi maalala kapag
darating na naman and araw na Christmas na once in your life you suffer
that sadness that you will never ask for that to be happen" because
every people ask for peace and happiness for everydays along.Right?I
am here celibrating my holidays alone. I celibrate it in my work by
making myself busy. Greeting friends, greeting customers, greeting my
relatives and my families are enough. well...This is the end of my
emotions ( ^_^ ) emotions only not my LIFE u know life is beautiful I
will never wasted my life just for the past because past is past. I
need to do is move on, have faith and just believe that everything to
us are by GOD''s will. He wier give it to us if we cannot survive
its just a lesson to be strong for every problems that may come,
preparing us for the next that we will be ready to iumphs were
always there behind us we cannot run away to it instead we can learn to
it.
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