BEING IN LOVE WITH VINCENT VAN GOGH
*To die may not be as hard as to live*
I was only a little child that i began to notice surrounding in all abundance of Colors.Beautiful and Magic Colors, but for difference of that, dominant color in my relationships to people was gray.I never was able to make *intimate and easy*contact to the others.I believe, there was a understanding between me and men i got to meet.There is not truth i didn’t want to make friends with many of them.My God,when i’m thinking of that,it was my guilt for certain.Must be i was quite different with all my *twist* contemplation, ideas,incapable to talk about common things of interest for majority.
So,i was striving to get close to people and the same time i running away.
How much was my LOVE for people testifies my Painting.Village and Peasants i liked the best.Living along them i had a feeling of security.Watching their agony for hard work i was suffering and striving to put such Suffering on my Canvas
The solution were COLORS.That is WHY i was going CRAZY!
GREEN and RED
Looking for suitable Paint to express passion and flaming atmosphere of present Murders,Prostitutes and Wanderers in Cafe i went Mad!
Dear Theo,
*The Letters of Vincent Van Gogh*if there was my Blame for being *Crazy and Despised*it comes from simply fact*I expose my Life to danger for my WORK and because of that my Mind is Dark
This quotation was written in his letter was found to Vincent on the day of his death, July 29 the 1890.
I am sure that you have been fostered by love of great Minds devoted to their works, with a feeling of a need of more understanding of what lives of these people looked like.
There is no doubt that they lived an unusual way ,not only for their creative powers then because of surrounding in which Masterpieces were made.Carrying a load of Creation it was often difficult for them to make a living from own works. Van Gogh matched this pattern at all
He was hungry during his life-a piece of bread and some coffee for few days until getting money from Theo.
About God and his work:*That is about unsuccessful designs and man loves the Artist who made them. This world had been slap together when Creator didn’t know what he was doing.*
I liked this Quotation!
I am amazed at Colors-colors and feelings determine his Work.
*What does mean drawing? How it could be reach? It is an act of breaking through invisible wall placed between what we feel and what we are able*
This Story is my free artistic interpretation of the Artist Life i have been drawn Inspiration from.
Thank you.
here is the link to Irving Stone’s Masterpiece *Lust for Life* based on the letters van Gogh wrote to his brother Theo.