10.14.2005
Sometimes, when I think I have it bad,
I see someone who has it worse.
When I see somebody crying,
I just want to tell them it’s alright.
I try and try…everyone becomes happy.
I make them so happy, giving them
Every section my heart can let go of.
But would they know that they take away
Every bit of my soul that has tried to live…
I’m really just torn to hell inside,
Not really thinking when I do good…
God says it’s righteous
Sometimes I think it’s dangerous to be so timid.
I’m really just scared of your world….
Sometimes it makes me feel so small.
Sometimes I just want to die and let all fall away.
When I see your smile,
When you are happy,
I can’t help but want you to be happy more than so myself.
Why would I need to be happy?
I don’t feel I deserve it.
I’ll give you what you want…
But you have to swear you will keep it.
Oh please, don’t throw away the only thing that makes my day.
Just be happy…and accept my love.
Just be free and never make mistakes like me.
They’ve fucked up my mind…
Don’t let them kill what is yours…
Just leave the unkind if it’s for better it cannot be worse.
I just want to be held…kisses all over me.
Someone tell me it’s alright…
Someone please love me.