Life, Nature and Time have never been kind to my family and me. We have never got anything easily and happily. Marriage to me came after years of struggle and tensions. It was definitely at a late age. I am paying for the consequences of it. I had given up hope and had reached the saturation point of waiting for it, when it finally happened to me. We all were delighted. Am happy that my husband is a very loving and caring person. He showed me ‘how does it feel to be in love’ and taught me to love and to be loved. He has a very calm and cool personality. He loves me unconditionally, unlike me.
Today I have been pondering over the fact, that, Nature is again unkind to us. It’s been two years of our marriage and we do not have a child. God and Nature have not showered their blessings on us to become parents. Our love seems incomplete. After a year of visiting doctors, yesterday a very sad diagnosis was concluded. It reflects my natural in competency to become a mother. NATURE UNKINDNES. I remember the words of a cousin of mine (facing the same problem?), who in distress said to me years back, ‘I have grown old’ at an age of 31 years. I feel am in the same of mind. There are definitely solutions to my problem and we intend to pursue them with time. But I have less time for the same.
I strongly believe in God and prayers. My prayers have never been answered honestly by God. Yes, I am very complaining today. For how long will our patience be tested? Yet, I have faith that our prayers will surely be heard and granted to us one day. BLESS US O LORD!