ONE If the walls have ears, can they listen and keep our secrets?
If the ceilings have eyes, can
they protect and watch over us?
If the floors can talk, can they offer us solutions and advices?
I am lost, for I have gone astray, with no guidance and lights to follow,
Listen to me, for my sorrows,
Protect me, from all the pain and sufferings,
Guide me, to the purest of life choices. 18th June 2007.I am 32 years old today. I would have thought that I had my life figured out… Boy was I wrong. I am more clueless about life than I was at 21. That was 11 years ago……..
18th June 1996. It was autumn in Melbourne, I just turned 21! I was on top of the world. I had everything I needed at 21! I was studying at one of the top business schools in the world, I had wonderful friends, beautiful apartment that was the envy of all my close friends, excellent grades and did I mention fabulous figure with flawless complexion.
Back then, I knew exactly what I wanted in life. I had it all mapped out. My business degree with accounting major will take four years. Then I would join one of the big six (at that time it was still Ernst&Young, Arthur Andersen, KPMG, PriceWaterhouse, Coopers&Lybrand and Deloitte – the big six of the accounting world) for three years, get my CPA then switch to consulting at Goldman Sach in London’s office. By the age of 32, my life would have been perfect and figured out!
There was no space for a man or a relationship or marriages in the plan. There would be no room nor the time for those things as I knew exactly what it takes to be where I wanted at 32 in the perfect office of Goldman Sach in London.
Nature has always found the best way on letting us know that as humans we can plan all we want, but there is still that little percentage in life that our plan might not turn out exactly as how we wanted it to be. And that is exactly how it happened. Nature has found its calling on me.
It was August,1996. Just before the Malaysian National Day Celebration in Melbourne, I met him. The man that changed the course of my life plan. Would I still went ahead with the temptations of getting to know him if I knew how it would changed my life plan and events? I am still trying to determine the answer to that question until this day. We met at a friend’s house in Preston, one of the north suburbs of Melbourne. I was not supposed to attend the dinner party.