Clouds of
darkness surround you, walls begin to close in on you as you feel your heart slow down and your breaths become
shorter, you lean into the
nearest wall and begin to hold your self up with all your might you close your eyes as millions of negative thoughts flood your brain, endless questions seem never ending yet they all start with that question you have no answer to why why why why
The minutes begin to tick by and you find yourself focusing on the nearest object your tearfull eyes can process, you remain fascinated by this object in the near distance as it begins to appear faded and drift away from you as your brain begins to work again and the realisation of what happened begins to hit you, your lifeless body starts to slow down as you sit on the closest object nearest you, your eyes close slowly as the tears stop falling and your heart rate becomes rapid and your breathing increases
You slowly open your eyes again and start to look around the room while feeling the walls close in on you and your chest tighten Anger starts to fill your soul as you start to focus on how hard you believe you tried, you begin to hate yourself muttering over and over again about how you have never achieved anything, how could anyone love you, how much of a failure you are, you start to try and focus on hating the one who made you dead inside yet with every image you feel yourself been stabbed in the heart more and more, you cant hate them, you love them even though they killed you, feels like a lifetime has gone and yet only ten minutes have passed since your love said its over…