An IMMORAL act for which no justification will ever hold good.perhaps thats y u delay the confession but ur act
remains deep
within u .it pricks u ..u r filled with GUILT and u finally succumb to it.U CONFESS but u cant justify,U APOLOGISE but u cant be forgiven,U make relentless efforts but nothing fetches any result.U learn that u lost this person not the day u confessed but the day u took to such an act,an act of depravity.U still dont give up.her words are bitter... u r hurt.,u have no where to go.u have no where to go cuz u dont wanna go anywhere without this girl....u want her standing by u all the time,anywhere u go anything u do ..cuz u need her..u crave for forgiveness but she wont forgive.may be she never loved u enough to have forgiven u ..to have given u another
chance... u give up..u take to drugs...escapism..a looser act.U r so full of her thoughts that u cant help but miss her day in day out,u want to talk to her every minute,u want to tell her how much u loved her but u r not given a chance.u crave for this chance,while craving for this chance u look through the sheet of pretence u had worn through out ur life and its this self created situation of adversity when u look through that pretence,pierce through ur superficial self and see the real u and then u no that u were in love,u never did enough to realize the content feeling of love cuz u were occupied with ur pseudo acts all the time.It is this situation which helped u realize ur mistake,ur priorities but it is this situation of IMMORALITY-GUILT-CONFESSION which made u loose one of the most prior things in the whole wide world.What
remains is the memory of the two of u together,her tender touch(sweet)her feeling of insecurity(not so sweet).n then u think u dint do enough to have made her feel secured ,u dint do enough to make her feel loved and when u want to do all that was missing then ,u learn its already too late.And then wat remains are the ashes of a painful and yet so beautiful burnt and crumbled relation,crumbled with ur own paws..And then what remains again are the sweet flashes of the moments of kissin ,love,getting drunk,tiffs uphill and down hill walks and a few good moments near a dry waterfall..clicked..captured...her giving u a cherry on ur nose..clicked..captured..Sweetest memories of these all..a peck on her cheek followed by an instant peck in air by her.....those wild acts in the field in the backyard of some club....horrible milk maggi,huddled and cuddled auto travel..her company on the way back to Bombay and blah blah blah blah blah and last but not the least a subconscious night at a frnz place.But its all a FAILURE cuz u may have learnt frm ur past mistakes,u may have changed but wat matters is u hv lost a girl u wanted to be with,a girl u wanted to luv and be luvd by all ur life..u may still luv her but she may not..its a FAILURE the only success here is u hv changed......and u continue to long for her....shud u be forgiven or not??...shud u be given a chance to proove urself??shud u be given a chance to b with her again??r u worthy of a revived (lost and shattered)luv?