Letter to You
You just woke up one morning and decided you didn’t love me anymore, was that? Did you think I’d be okay, did you think I would just move on. You left and it was selfish to do so, I’m alone now. People tell me that I should understand, that I should let go and I refuse to.
Tell me who told you to just leave me, didn’t you think I miss you. I’m so use to making coffee for two you know. I stand in the mornings waiting for you to come through the kitchen door and grab your coffee. I’ve become insane because I still wear your shirt to sleep and I find myself talking to air, because I only want to talk to you. See you left and I always planned that we would always be together. I don’t know how to live any other way. My world doesn’t exist anymore and all I do is float in the world waiting for time to pass me by.
Did you love me? Do you miss me? Have you seen me around the streets walking amongst the ones that are alive? I’m scare sometimes you know that I won’t ever hear from you again. Many times I have thought of going to look for you, many times I find it would be easier just to look for you. Yet papa says that at it given time I will look for you, and I will find you. Papa has tried to stop me from going many times and it hurts him to see me wanting to leave.
I didn’t plan for you to die; I didn’t plan to live alone. I wish people would understand that part of me is so dead inside that there is no point in continuing this charade. I don’t want to love, for I already have, and I don’t want anyone to sleep next to me because I know you’ll be back one day, and you won’t be replaced. However this is my final goodbye, I must want to live and that means forgetting you. To know that you existed means that my only truth no died. So with these words I say my final goodbyes, I love you and always will. R.I.P soul mate.