Do I need to go away, do I need to stay alone as before, totally alone for some time, just to get peace with my life.
What is going into me, why things are changing this way, why sometimes I loose my hope in everything, why sometimes shadows surround me, why am I usually escaping these thoughts, may be I will have to face them one day. My heart is trembling, trembling of confusion, of uncertainty, of fear, fear of the future and what it brings, fear of unwanted changes in my life, fear of unexpected events I could face in the near future, I
need a resting shore to take my breath, some times I loose the way to my shore but other times her eyes show me the way, and I get relaxed from my thoughts by a gentle caring jest, a sweet word after a heavy day, a good morning kiss or a good night hug, and it still amazes me how I feel much better after these small tricks.
My life is in an
evolution process for sometime now, things are evolving slowly but continually, an evolution that needs your full concentration, details you choose to get involved in for the first time in your life, failures, success, a whole new registered life, new people you get to know, new friends you encounter, new family members you get to see, new habits and attitudes, new pleasant stress, new concepts regarding your work, your life your free time even your friend gatherings, suddenly you enter life race without any warnings.
I am happy I am still enjoying little things in life, a walk by the sea, a good book and some light music, a good meal cooked with love, a hot chocolate in a cold winter day, a flower gift to the one you love, the memory of an old song that reminds you of someone, a long road trip, a morning swim in the sea, friends gatherings and go outs, I am glade we are still there for each other, I am glade we still support each other in all our issues despite life and its burdens, I am glade we are still a group with our wives and we are still hanging out together as families.