THE DON
“WHO
AM I??”
I keep asking my self,
who am I? I wonder who am I or what am I?
I am a
person who is so gentle and soft inside, I find life so amusing but very
challenging, and I see life as a game because I believe the real life begins
after this game. For you people who knew me because of what you see in me think
again, I wish people can see through my mind and my hearth so they will knew
the real me and what is inside me.
I love being with my
friends, I don’t want to be lonely. I love enjoying my time with my friends,
cousins, relatives and my love one. I am just a simple person, the person you
can approach anytime. I like having many friends, friends that are trustworthy.
I also love being in a relationship, I want comfort and company. Because I’m
afraid of being a loner. I am vengeful, I love
vengeance, and I love hurting the ones who had hurt me. I don't know why? Maybe
because of my pride? I do not know why I act like this. I want to see them suffer,
I want them to feel what I have felt the day they wounded me. I want them to
suffer more than what I have suffered. However, after that I always feel
guilty, my conscience always prevails. Sometimes I ask my self “Don, what’s
wrong??” It keeps bothering me, I feel the remorse.
I know now you see me
as a complicated person, yes I think I am. I am not a selfish kind of person; I
want to share my thoughts and feelings to others. I do not find my self
interesting I am just a simple person but I do not know why people always see
me in a different way. I want them to treat me as I should be treated, we all
are the same, we came from god we should be treated equally…
“THE
PAST”
When I was young,
I used to be jolly and “makulet” I was granted with many friends. I spent my
time playing with my “kapit bahays” I go wherever they go. I play a lot even
though my parents are very strict missed my childhood days so much, if only I
can go back in time.
At the age of eight, I had my first
girlfriend and became “loko-loko”. I used to role-play every prince charming in
fairy tales every year when I was at elementary. That is why they say “cute ako nung
bata.hehe”. When I was in my high school years, all the things change, I have
chosen the wrong path but naturally I do not want to admit that I have chosen
the wrong way. I have experience things no one in school ever imagined, I gained
popularity, I gained respect, I made friends and I have done many things no
boys should have done at their age. I have experienced a lot in this life; I
just do not talk or just sit and tell about my past. Nevertheless, I am not
ashamed of my past, I was thankful that things happened to me. I know it was
wrong but I am grateful because of the lessons that I have learned. I went in
and out in many tight situations I really do not like depending on my friends
and family, I just want to do it by God and myself.
Now I have
change a lot, this is a new life for me, another chance, and another
opportunity to prove myself. I need to continue this game; I do not want to
lose in this game. Here’s another chance, another role on the dice. I always
expect for the unexpected. I wish someday my dreams would come true.
There’s always a
chance, a chance to get back to life. “Never mind the past, fight and role the
dice”.-Don