That title doesn’t look nor sound
likes anything special in itself, right?
However, for me, it is!
I’ve
already mentioned my sister
in a few posts here. She really is the skinny type, with a slim body, long
legs, a lean face… Everything in her is slim. I won’t say that she has NO
weight problems, because at some point in her life, during puberty, she gained
some, but her ‘highest weight ever’ was appreciatively what, until recently,
has been MY ‘lowest weight ever’–about 62-63 kgs. So I can’t say that she’s
been fat, it didn’t last long enough for her to get into the fat mindset and
the likes, nor for her to really buy tons of clothes at such sizes.
This is why, when my sister gave
me clothes this past week-end, it was no small achievement for me, since it
openly meant I had lost enough in terms of weight and
clothing sizes. And those
aren’t her ‘fat clothes’ either (her fat clothes are too big for me, mind you)!
Granted, I wasn’t sure at first
if said clothes would fit. (Isn’t it annoying, by the way? It seems like that
particular thought will never leave me now, used like I am to always have to
ask for a bigger size when I try on something in a store. I hope that someday,
I’ll be at goal and in maintenance mode with enough confidence to know what
size I am for sure.) Anyway, I wasn’t sure. I shouldn’t have worried about it,
though. They fit. They even fit so well that I couldn’t believe it at first. Goodness,
those are clothes I remember seeing on my sis at a period when I thought and
knew that she was thin! She is a few centimeters taller than I,
alright–but this isn’t enough to make me look like an elephant compared to her
either.
And I’m glad. I’m happy about
it, even. This is the kind of apparently insignificant event that means a whole
world to someone like me. My body is far from being perfect and I’m not at goal
yet, but the hell with that–I fit in NORMAL clothes
that have been worn by a person generally considered as THIN! And it’s not an
illusion, or me trying to squeeze rolls of fat into a pair of trousers that is
clearly too small for me!
Not to mention the fact that
it’s a life saver, and that I now have a couple more items to wear instead of
having to do with two pairs of jeans, two skirts and three T-shirts. /rolls her
eyes.
As a side note, I am also now
the proud owner of a short black skirt with braces (straps? suspenders?) and
leggings with horizontal stripes. Yep its horizontal. The very kind of pattern
I’ve been told to never wear “because you’re fat”. Now I don’t care if I still
have thick legs.
I’m ecstatic. In spite of the
ongoing struggles, I am.