Everything always seems so perfect when your growing up, the only not so perfect is whats really going on with the people
that you really love and care about.
I always had a very close relationship with my
mother, we laughed, cried shared everything with each other. In 2003 mom was diagnosed with Multiple Sclorosis. We were in shock, how could this have happened? The doctors could only say that the disease had been there and a virus or infection brought it out.
Mom was devastated, including me and my siblings. At first when the MS took effect mom could barely walk, we had to convince her to go to see the doctor. I was always there for my mom,as time went on the effects of this disease were getting worse.
We shared everything together nomatter how hard it was to have to watch my mom slowly die. I took care of her. Me and my son moved in with my mom so I could help her. We had an apatment in town but it was too far away. Mom
needed someone there with her if she fell or needed medical attention.
I learned from a nurse that came every two weeks how to give her shots and how to care for her needs. She took a shot every other day and had to take 21 pills a day. I have 2 sisters and a brother, but I am the youngest. I needed their help but only one of my sisters would come to set with mom every now and then.
I was tired, felt alone and so depressed because there was nothing that I could do to ease my moms pain. I loved her so much and my son loved her. He would go in her room and watch tv with her, play checkers or play with his play-doh. Mom was bedridden, she couldn't walk or turn herself over in bed. I did that for her. I was her friend, her confident, her cook and her nurse. My mother was a very christian lady and the church was her life. When she had to stop going it killed her on the inside, she did alot of cooking and fund raising for her church. She loved everyone and would try to help anyone. I really miss my mom. I know my son does he just doesn't talk much about it. I know mom is in a better place, I just hope that I turn out to be the person like she was, so precious and sweet and loving.