MY DREADFUL HOPES
Whom I turned to be is nothing for you, not even night and day’s cries
with heavy tears can change it.
I
know I have no chance, but it is not meant to be in this way. I loved you those words shall not bring me misery, not from you. That never gave the right to others to hurt me, nor to take you away from me.
The last two years I’ve not known anything perfect like I knew you, I have nothing to lose only your heart to win.
But how you treated me really felt awkward, your words fill my heart your name
rush through my mind from one corner to another.
I know that you know that I love you maybe you don’t, but baby be sure no one will ever love you the way I do, it’s a feeling I will never let go.
What do you think keeps me on? All I do in school is watching your face, hearing your words and dreaming to be in your world. I don’t care for anything anymore, not my marks , not my family, not my life but angle’s wings spread among my blue sky each moment your eyes spark awaking the love I have to you in me.
The pain you have caused taught me one thing, that losing you is not an option. I wish I was stabbed or hit by a car, and that was too close to happen until my cousin stopped me at the last stand.
I ask for nothing because I will soon be going for good where I have my only chance to pass that awful exam, to see the other life that welcomes new happiness under your arms.
I shout from the deepest spots blood can reach, but as they travel through me tears rush out showing the pain in me.
I hope someday you read this, let the truth I kept in me burn out and speak upon it’s consequences that I will run away from till I find my exit out of this life, where I will find a chance with you….
I LOVE you
23.3.2007
Jawad Masannat