Why do I miss him so much? Hes been the bain of my life for over 6 years. causing me and our children nothing but loss and grief. he's a drug addict, of the best sort.
I'm a staight down the line honest sort of person striving to make the best of my life for my own and my children's sake, but he's their dad and what could be better for a child growing up than having two loving parents.
They're five and four years old, now it matters.
I've left him three times before and each time immegrated to another country.
He can be the best dad in the world, untill he loses his control and slips again.
I wont know untill its bad, obviously. When it happens I always seem to think that I can change it. There are so many ways 'they say' of dealing with an addict, I've tried them all. From tough love to understanding. None needless to say worked but somehow leaving the country had the desired effect regardless of the fact that that was a last measure to get away from him.
Once he staightens up he seemed to miracolously turn into the perfect father and concerned husband again and over a period of a few months once again become irresistable to me and my dream of a perfect family.