I made it a life''s ambition to live accordingly to principles
set by God. But, then
sin invaded my space and I''ve been captured by it
ever since. My sight became blurred, my taste became bitter, my hearing
became dull, my smelling became offensive, and the feelings I had were
numb. I walked as though I were inside a shell that could only watch
the outside going by. I became submissive to others, hoping to gain
authority over myself. I denied myself so much that wisdom eluded me,
and when I would attempt to overcome this plight of mine, I''d only fall
deeper into its'' grip and, then, sin was my master.
Sin isn''t really considered today as much as it was when I was
growing up. Why, it''s even considered normal for a little lie to be
okay. Don''t want to hurt someone''s feelings so we lie about it. Don''t
want to reveal a little discrepancy, so we lie a little to avoid the
circumstances. Before you know it, you begin to question truth. You
question reality. You become devilish in outwitting others, so that
your own pride isn''t wounded. But, soon those things considered
innocent become apprentices to self abandonment, and yes, authority is
not yours.
Sin, I know, leads to these kinds of deleterious actions. I don''t
know how to explain why this happens, however, because we are ever
evolving, discriminatory thinking has lead us away from the basics, and
perhaps, someone with a bit of schooling would be able to go into depth
about it. But do know this, and make no mistake about it. There are
some who''d rather you didn''t talk about it, or try to make it clear to
you that a person has to be really sick in their minds to mention the
devil to you. But, the principalities of evil derives from the devil,
and the devil rules the evil world to cause havoc against the world of
Light and Truth, and spiritual influences in an unseen world are just as
real as spiritual Truths influence the World of Lights.
The sin of pure selfishness leads to deleterious actions. Here''s
an example. I''m not a homosexual. But because I let
lust rule my
senses I engaged in homosexual activities. I mean I really liked sex.
I tried to justify my actions by saying sex is simply sex. It didn''t
matter if I were having it with a male or a female, I wanted sex. This
is the deleterious act of lust, and it can even grow deeper, such as
those who have sex with animals. But am I an animal? It''s an awful
feeling fighting the demons of lust. Our senses become so overcast that
our bodies begin to take toll. The mind begins to diminish, as well.
In America, where our freedoms are so intoxicated with the unalienable
rights given to us by Our Creator, and written down in books that will
some day be used in that Great Court of Justice, either to defend us or
accuse us; Is it any wonder that such a soul might be able to try and
find solace in an act considered with so much atrocity? It''s not surpr!
ising at all.
The understanding of sin was our compass and navigator of a would
be world of peace and tranquility. It is written thve our thoughts, but if He navigated His Creation with the
word sin in the beginning; Wouldn''t it be correct to say He navigates
the plight of our lives today with it? "Professing to be wise we became
as fools", (knowing not what we should). So, we must learn to conquer
it.
Do not sanction it by saying you were born to be it...that''s like
saying, well, the next generation will just have to deal with it.
However; How exactly are we dealing with such materialized
understanding? And for all of the homosexuals who disagree with what I
just said? Well, the first time I engaged in homosexuality was to find
out the truth of what I was hearing about it. I knew my heart at the
time that I experimented with it, some 26 years ago. The consequences
are there, still though. I had heard it litigated that the Apostles
were always naked while they fished together. I had heard that they must have been
homosexuals. So I tasted the sin to see the effect of it on the Ghost
that had always been with me. As soon as I did engage, that Ghost of the
Holy departed my side. It never left me, mind you. But I knew it
wasn''t pleased. And I enjoyed the sin too much to not abandon the idea
of it. I entertained it with pornography, masturbation, and just plain
selfish lust, until I was too sick inside for which then, I began the
title of this article. "To whom is forgiven much, much is expected".
When it is all said and done my life will be complete. I hope it''s not all said and done
though because I still want to discover that "electricity" of what might
be.