A voice in my head was telling me to write what I am feeling right now. I feel
hurt deep in my heart. It was painful. And at times, I felt like I wanted to cry out loud but tears just could not flow out of my heart.
Lord Buddha said that the
mind is the fore runner of all things. I am trying to find if the feelings that I am
going through is due to a perception from my mind or whether it is independently out of my heart.
The mind is the fore runner of all things and the
heart feels what the mind is going through. The mind can see things objectively and with equanimity and able to see things as they truly are, for if the mind is strongly trained. The heart cannot live without the mind as the mind is its eyes and ears. If one lets its heart wonders with no sense of direction, it could most likely experience both joyous and hurtful feelings at extreme ends. A trained mind would be one which is able to see things with a good balance, not too happy or too painful.
When the heart is feeling deep
pain and hurt, the mind has to come into play to strengthen the heart by reminding the heart the
values that it should be holding on. The heart forms the fundamental of mankind and the mind is driver of the heart.
It’s amazing to note that the pain and hurt that I am going through at this point of time, both in my heart and my mind, is having a physical effect on my physical body itself. My chest feels pain – but I’ve had chest pain or heart pain for the past months where it extends to pains on my shoulders and numbness to my fingers
– my shoulders and arms feel tensed up; Nausea-tic which is making me feel like vomiting out my dinner; the top part of my hands aches; my breathing quicken, etc.
I think that’s what the feeling of hurt does to our physical system. It’s important to seek the cause of the hurt so that it would not re-occur time and again. A quick fix is not a solution to a long term problem.
My hurt stems from a decision which I made, that would hurt my emotions in the short run, but hopefully the benefits of the moral values of which the decision was based on will submerge in the longer term. If I were to allow my heart to journey alone independently of my mind, I would get my heart hurt even more deeply than the current pain. As the old Chinese saying goes, “Short run pain is better than the long deep cut”.
Some people see things just through the mind’s eyes and others go through life by only using the heart. However, the mind and the heart cannot be separated. And in order to have valuable experiences in one’s lifetime, both have to come into play concurrently. The mind feeds the heart with values and wisdom; whilst the heart, using these values and wisdom to shine out its compassion and unconditional love to those who are in need BUT within limits (wisdom).
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